Feeling a little discouraged

This week has been a good week but a jammed packed week. In so many ways that can be kinda nice because you get a lot done and the week goes by so fast but it also means that when something else is piled on you are already really stretched. That is how I feel a little today. Really stretched. My poor brain is not equipped to hold so much information. But the point of this post is not all that it is that I am having so many issues with Bennett's therapy and I am getting that ticking clock feeling, that so much time is slipping through my fingers because of all these problems I am having. It is so hard not to let that get to you. It makes me really anxious. Here is what is going on and I would love to hear everyone's advice on what I should do next.

So we did all his testing with early intervention and then what should have taken them the next week to assign him a therapist took 3. Then when she called she came out for 2 hours, made me late to pick up Porter and just wanted to double check every single answer of his testing. She apparently wasn't convinced that he needed services. I should point out she did not test him and she did not even met him until the last 15 minutes of that appointment. So I had to leave but she was coming again the next week and she would start work with Bennett. Wrong again. She comes and spends the whole hour going over goals, and she gives me this lecture that maybe he was given the wrong diagnosis. She wasn't saying he wasn't autistic she was saying that she thinks he has aspbergers. Again she has not even worked with him, but she saw him for 15 minutes and somehow that makes her more qualified than a dr. who has studied autism for 30 years. I don't think so. Anyways I politely said that he had the right diagnosis and that really that should not affect his services and I tried to redirect her into beginning the session. Well she never did and to top it off she sat there drilling me and trying to let me know that I don't really know anything about autism. I should point out she is a speech therapists and unfortunately they fit this mold most of the time. Anyways she went over and made me late for Nickelle and still never began therapy. I called Dallin and I told him I was nervous about her because she just wanted to dig at everything I do and find something wrong with it and she still never began services. He reminded me that it is always really crazy in the beginning and that most of our therapists have judged me in the beginning until they have gotten to know me and learn to trust that I know my kids.

Also with all this he is supposed to be starting a class with a small group of kids and they do a play therapy group. He will begin that this week. Anyways she calls me last night and tells me she doesn't want to be Bennett's therapists which of course makes me feel like she doesn't want to work with me. Which honestly I could be completely blind to this but I think I am really easy to work with but who knows. Anyways she tells me someone else will see him and to met her on Thursday so she can introduce me. Then she calls this morning and I find out that Bennett might not be able to get in the class with the kids, which in my opinion is the most important service we could be getting him. She says because she has never worked with him yet they can't recommend it. Then she informs me that she thought that instead of the lady she talked to before about being Bennett's therapists she decided to ask someone else because this other woman lost 4 clients and has lots of time now. Then she tells me to met her at a different time on Thursday and not to bring my other kids so I can met this therapist. Then she informs me that she felt like after speaking with me that Brinley was not getting the right services and has asked that she can be able to come and give her therapy. Frankly this woman is a mess and I am being thrown all over the place and I am still not receiving services and if she comes and see's Brinley then I am not sure if Brinley will get what she needs either.

I am a mess. I am trying so hard to fight for every moment I can get of therapy for Bennett he will only get 4 months before he won't qualify and he already tests to high to qualify for the developmental preschool. Which basically means I have 4 months of therapy and then nothing so this is a big deal, and I don't want to work with just anybody, I want to work with the right person. I need a Wendy!!!! That won't make sense to most of you, but trust me that is what I need. I am great at doing the therapy and finding services and putting it all into place but where I struggle is advocating. I am terrible at fighting back. I feel like I have learned a lot but this is anything but natural to me. So I would love any thoughts on this. I should probably be patient and let things work out, but I feel uneasy right now and I want to feel confident in what we are doing. Anyways that is my rant for the day. You gotta love it. Sorry.