So the last couple weeks it seems I have been given one small test after another until the smallest dumbest thing happened today and I just feel I have hit my max. So here is the run down. It started with all the kids getting really sick. Then they all seemed to be better when BAM Bennett starts getting sick again then another day later Nickelle starts getting sick again. So I took them to the doctor AGAIN and it turns out they both have ear infections in both their ears and that is why they were not getting better. Then Dallin and I started to get sick. Mostly just congested. But we were both bummed because Dallin is in Arizona all this week until Sunday so I will be sick alone with the kids, and he is really sick and having to travel. Then yesterday he gets incredible ear pain has to find a doctor in Arizona and turns out he has ear infections in both ears as well as a possible sinus infection. Then on the therapy front. Earlier this semester Porter has one therapist who he makes the most progress with and we knew this before but she has not been able to work much at all because of school, so we no longer have that going on. Then on Thursday I go to OT and find out she is giving all her clients a 3 week notice because she is leaving. So back on the waiting list for Porter. This is hard for me because Porter does not do well in anything unless his sensory needs are being met, so this should be interesting. I am incredibly discouraged about this. Then yesterday I get told by Porter's IBI therapist that they may be moving in a few months. So again I get to join the waiting list as well as trying to find someone who I actually think does a good job. So that leaves only one therapist left that he only sees once a week for an hour, and I have to find new people to fill up everything else. I wish I could express how stressful the waiting game can be to receive services but it is a joke. So then today I rush to get the kids to school on time and I am hanging out at BYU-I just waiting for Porter and Nickelle to be done when suddenly my brand new phone completely stops working. I have tried everything and I will probably have to make another trip to Rexburg today to see if someone can fix my phone. But for me this was the final blow, mainly because now I cannot talk to my husband. So now I have to make it through to week with just some e-mails here and there. If you know Dallin and I well you know this will not be fun for us. If you need to contact me you can e-mail me until I get it figured out.
All in all, I refuse to let any of this get me down. If I have learned one thing, it is that Dallin and I have been asked to continuously go through really tuff things. The Lord always provides a way, and I just need to do my best to fight my hardest for my kid and keep my faith. In fact this is my theme song in life.
Another day has almost come and gone
Can't imagine what else could wrong
Sometimes I'd like to hide away somewhere and lock the door
A single battle lost but not the war ('cause)
Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain
It's almost like the hard times circle 'round
A couple drops and they all start coming down
Yeah, I might feel defeated,
I might hang my head
I might be barely breathing - but I'm not dead
Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain
I'm not gonna let it get me down
I'm not gonna cry
And I'm not gonna lose any sleep tonight
4 comments:
That is a fabulous poem. I had an ear infection this year for the first time since I was a child. It was the craziest thing. Good luck on finding new help for Porter.
oh, season! you are going through some tough times, aren't you? good for you for hanging in there. i hope things start picking up soon. we love you guys!
You are so strong and amazing!! Cairo has had 4 ear infections in 2 months! I understand that part. I hope that things will work out! Love ya!!!
hmm...there must be something in the air, because I think I've hit the breaking point as well. Love IT!
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