I am so in love with my kids!

So I am a little emotional about leaving my kids. I know they will be fine and happy and having the best time with their grandparents but I know how much I will miss them and I already am feeling sad. But I am going to be brave and tuff and enjoy every second with my man because I am crazy about him.

This has been a hard but amazing week. Porter is having some more complications and we are completely unsure of what is going on. It is amazing how many nights Dallin and I have laid awake all night just completely worried. We are not sure what all is happening with him but it may involve more neuro testing which has been hard to swallow. I keep reminding myself the best we can do is take it one day at a time and go from there. But two amazing things have happened this week 1. Porter was able to get a priesthood blessing from his Father and Grandfather which was amazing. The whole time he was getting his blessing he was looking at his Dad with so much pride then right after he put his hands on my head and said "Jesus Christ Amen". It reminded me how pure my children are and what beautiful examples of pure faith in Christ. I need to be more that way. 2. We have hired a student to come and help with Porter and already this has turned out to be amazing. I am really impressed with her attitude and preparation. Porter is responding well to her and I am looking forward to the extra help with him at home. 

To end this long entry I want to add something I have been learning lately. The biggest trial in my life right now honestly is healing. I have prayed and studied so much about how I can truly heal and then today it just hit me. Just keep having faith and holding on. Line upon line as we draw closer to God he continues to cleanse and heal us. At least for me it has not been a all in one night healing but I realized how more and more all the time I am healing and in the place of my sorrow I am filling up with the knowledge of how much God really does love me.  What a amazing journey I am on and I am grateful for it. Thanks for letting me pour out my heart.